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they’ve always said, when you feel a random shiver, that a rabbit has run across your future grave
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1.
Because I need music
I press my ear to the walland listen to the lovers
in the next roomas they undress each other
as they undress each other.The glorious
tintinnabulationof one shirt, two shirts
clanging to the floor.2.
After she came
he rolled awayand fell off the edge
of the twin bed.3.
As I drive home
to the reservationI pass my the motel
where a white girl I lovedduring high school
lost her virginity
to a white boy
after the goddamn prom.4.
On the first night of our honeymoon
we lie in bed, too exhausted for sexor conversation. Instead, we listen
to the surf, wave after wave after wave.5.
On the couch, X wants Y
to take off her pantsbut she refuses
because her friend, Zis naked in bed
on the other sideof the room
with X’s best friend, Awho is desperately
in love with Y.6.
O, the lonely country!
O, the lonely city!
O, the lonely motel!
O, the lonely bed!
O, the lonely man!7.
There are two beds in the room. Of course
we make love in one, fall asleep in the other.8.
Listen, she says, I always wanted
to watch a pornographic moviein a hotel room, so my boyfriend
and I ordered one, pay-per-viewbut it wasn’t real porn. I mean
they didn’t show any penetration.It was just a bunch of shots
of sweaty bellies and profiles,really tame, generic stuff,
and it barely aroused usso we just sort of kissed
and fondled each otherthen fell asleep, still
wearing most of our clothes.9.
In the darkness, her dark body grows darker
until I am making love to her and her shadow.10.
In Santa Monica, over
the course of three nightsthe woman in the next room
sleeps with three different men.I watch them all arrive
through the security peepholein my door. One of the men
is beautiful, one is uglyand the third is a waiter
from the restaurant downstairs.11.
Scientists recently examined a hotel room comforter
and discovered 412 different samples of sperm.12.
Okay, he says, I’m not one of those guys
who sleeps with anything that movesbut the threat of AIDS prevented me
from even thinkingabout becoming one of those guys.
AIDS is a shitty deal for everybodybut it’s a really shitty deal for sex in general.
After all, our parents got to fuckand fuck and fuck and fuck
without the fear of death.I mean, I think all the liberalism
and progressive social changeduring the sixties happened
because everybody was fuckinglike crazy. And I think we elected
and re-elected that right-wing Reagan assholebecause nobody was fucking.
That’s right, sex and politicsare linked. Tight as tight.
If it was up to me, I’d set up this motelwhere sex was happening
in every room. Sex and food.I mean, the mini-bars would be filled
with cheese and crackers and fruit.Room service would be complimentary.
Good coffee machines.Sex and jobs, too.
I mean, in order to participateyou’d have to work at the motel,
janitor, maid, waiter, something.Sex and love, of course
I mean, if you wanted to, you couldjust have sex with one person.
That would be permittedmaybe even encouraged.
Everybody would have enough sexeverybody would have enough food
and everybody would have a job.13.
Home with her
we get ready for bedbrush our teeth, wash our faces
all of those small ceremoniesand then we’re beneath
the down comforteron a cold Seattle night
and I’m almost asleepwhen she moves close
kisses my ear and asks meto pretend we’re in the last
vacant motel room in the world.

Tattooed sailor aboard the USS New Jersey (BB 62), photo by Lieutenant Commander Charles Fenno Jacobs, December 1944 (x)
Peter de Potter
Sorry about the bony elbows, sorry we
lived here, sorry about the scene at the bottom of the stairwell
and how I ruined everything by saying it out loud.
Especially that, but I should have known.
experiments on a girl: virginal milk, cracked pelvis, intestinal meat, girl remains. abdominal abomination. needle abortion. embryonic lollipop. candy coma. holy piss. safetypin eyedrops. viscosity fuck. stop. dirt angel; asphyxiated angel, plastic-bag-over-face angel. accidental.
Sometimes humans just die. And you cannot save them.
Sometimes humans do not die, and you cannot save them.
Edward Gorey